Suck-Tastic Weekend: Part 2

Monday morning, my sister graciously took me to my follow up appointment/ 36wk check up, baby Claire was doing just fine and I broke down in tears in Dr. P's office because he actually scheduled the C-Section for December 5th at 7:15 am.  I'm not entirely sure why I cried to him, but he took time to talk to me , reassure me how controlled it will all be and that it's the best choice for our situation.  I'm lucky to have such a nice and understanding doctor.

I got into Emily's car and texted a co-worker about our conference call I missed and she immediately texted back "Check your Email."  Turns out I was to be on a 12:00pm call... she was on a 12:30pm call.  That's how we'd know if we still had a job or not.

Wouldn't you know, the 12:00pm call came around, my heart was beating SO fast, my contractions were def there... I was laid off, right then and there, along with hundreds of other sales people around the country on the call.  "Laid off effective immediately."  No more job.  I started hyperventilating and crying hysterically... Emily missed her turn and we ended up at the Port of Houston.  She was shocked too, and texted Josh "Erin's fired, please call."

I guess the rest of the day was mostly crying, feeling sorry for myself, accusing them of discrimination of a pregnant person...but the shining light in everything was my husband.  Josh was calm, he wasn't upset, he was ALL buisness.  He assured me everything would be ok.  He created a list of things we need to do... calls to make, arrangements to be made... He was really amazing, I was certainly a wreck.

Here's the logistics, I get a few more weeks pay, car and computer...then those are gone.  I get health insurance through December 31st. Thank God.  Did I mention I'm having a C-Section soon!  I was so relieved to hear that.  We're in the middle of Josh's open enrollment, another blessing.  He will add me and Claire to his insurance.  Yes, we'll need a car, computer, and brand new budget, but I filed for unemployment, updated my resume and talked to my sales recruiter already.

I'm already feeling better, there are many others in my shoes.  According to the news, many MANY others in my shoes, I'm just another number in the unemployment statistics now.  But everything happens for a reason, Claire needs me to calm down, forget about working and just be ready to take care of her ever need.  When and if we decide I should go back to work, I'm prepared and have a brand new outlook, I can't take this personally and we'll be OK.

I've already had so many friends call/text/stop by and it means the world to me...it's been a rough pregnancy, rollercoaster of emotions, losing my grandmother....totalling our car...getting so sick...losing job...But that's life!  I'm so happy to have friends and family that are always there for us and make me smile. And, for a healthy baby girl, who just happens to be wrong side up, but we still love her.

Count down to baby:  18 days!!